Sleepy Baby

Today I went in for my scheduled non-stress test and like last week Xavier was a very sleepy baby. No matter how much I poked or pushed my belly to wake him he kept pretty quite. He would move and kick but kept his heart rate just under 160, over 160 would be his target. So the nurse buzzed him a couple times, the second time raised his hr to his target. But he had to reach his target again within a certain amount of time and the nurse told me if he didn't then we'd have an ultrasound. Of course I didn't mind getting an ultrasound and seeing my precious boy, but I'd much rather have him reach his goal by using the monitor. After 40min. the nurse checked to see if he had made any progress and called another nurse over to get a second opinion. This made me a little uneasy, I hoped that nothing was wrong. Nothing was wrong Thank GOD, the other nurse who came over agreed that Xavier met his goals and I was able to leave. Our next appointments for this test I scheduled them for the afternoon in hopes that he'll be more awake.

Usually when I start to wake up in bed Xavier will start to wake also. He'll be moving around then he'll hit and kick me. I'll rub my belly and tell him good morning and just enjoy him moving around. He makes me laugh sometimes, when I'm laying on my side he'll hit the matress beneath me or push off of it. Man this boy is so strong! And the mornings when I wake and he's quiet I gently place my hand just under my rib where I know that's where one of his feet are. He'll give me a soft tap just under my hand letting me know he feels me feeling for him. My heart melts. *Sigh* He makes me smile and I laugh to myself when I feel him having the hiccups, it's the cutest little thing.

I love him so much already,it fills my heart and chest, it rises from there, it feels like I'm glowing. Love radiates. I still can't imagine just how much more I'll love him when he's here. I think that maybe when I see my little Xaviers face for the first time, love will fill my whole body and get so full that it will instantly fill my soul. Maybe this is what love for your child will feel like. I can't wait to experience it. The time is getting closer and closer til he'll be here. Yesterday I had a moment like I had in the begining of my pregnancy. I was sitting on the couch looking at the baby car seat thinking, "We're gonna have a baby, we are going to have a baby". No one will be picking him up to take him home, he'll be all ours. Our sweet little baby boy. I'm just so excited and can't wait to bring him home. I have to start packing my hospital bag and buying all the essential items I'll need. And start washing his little baby clothes and bedding just in case if he comes a little early. We've got alot work to do!