"Hello little one!"

This is our first time creating a blog for all to see our amazing journey to parenthood. When I first found out I was pregnant I was in Michael's parking lot. I had called for the results of my pregnancy test and had to hold as the nurse looked for my chart. I was preparing myself to hear "negative" for the result, but a little part of me was still hopeful. When she finally came back on she says "Ok Sonia, just looking for the results...(pause)...and it's positive".

I was in complete shock and started to cry, I asked her if she was serious. (Like the nurse would joke around, " Sonia your pregnancy test is positive" and I'd say "really" then she'd say laughing, "no I'm not serious, it's really negative"). Looking back I thought how stupid of me to ask if she was serious, but at the time being in shock I just said what ever, it was so random.

I completely broke down, crying hysterically and kept thanking God over and over. The nurse kept asking me questions and I could barely answer her, I couldn't breathe. My answers were short and very high pitched like I had the wind knocked out of me. After I hung up with the nurse I sat in the explorer crying my heart out.

The many years of trying on our own to get pregnant, then the years with the specialist(intrusive not so comfortable tests and lot's of needles), and all those horrible negative home pregnancy tests really took alot of me. Even as positive as I tried to be it was still incredibly hard. There's so many mixed feelings that a woman goes through when she can't get pregnant, but when I heard that one word "positive", all the negative feelings that I ever thought or felt were shed with my tears. My tears turned into tears of happiness and I remember asking the nurse if she could repeat the result again, "positive".

Marc and I are incredibly happy, it could've happened sooner but looking back on our soon to be ten year marriage, there could not have been a more perfect time than now for us to receive our blessing. I always like to remind people and this is something that I strongly believe in, "everything happens for a reason", and a small part of a quote from my grandmother Doris "trust in the lord". These quotes are very simple, but people make life more complicated than it already is. We are grateful for every blessing we are given and absolutely will never take this blessing of a baby for granted.

I almost forgot, I have to share this funny thought I had as I drove off the parking lot to share the good news with Marc. I remember thinking "I can't wait to be sick, I can't wait to vomit", a sure sign of pregnancy. I definitely at the time couldn't wait for those signs the good and the bad, I'm just so happy and blessed to experience pregnancy for the first time.